feeling hella down and insecure abt everything tbh ! this is like the fifth time i’ve felt like this ? i know it’s normal but it’s so frustrating tbh esp when i keep it bottled up and let it explode on me which i shouldn’t. there’s just so many muses i want to write yet there are a lot of people already writing them and it makes me really shy and makes me want to s  t a  y away. i lov duplicates don’t get me wrong but i also am afraid of being replaced ? bc my writing is no thing special, and i barely even do anything on my blogs to begin with so honestly ??? why am i still even on here ? 

o n  another more personal note;

lately things have been really hectic irl, my internet was cut off, my family and i were almost evicted and i kind of blame myself ?? bc at least if i had a job to help my mother out some we may be able to have money for extra things but no i’m a anxious socially-awkward bratty and lazy little fucker who can’t get off her ass to help her mother. i feel really useless, and ik i am tbh. i kind of want to delete everything and never get back online again ? bc my being on here isn’t a big thing, there are sO MANY people on here who are perfection and literally goals when it comes to writing yet i can barely write a word without being drained ? it’s the same irl. when ever i do something irl, i immediately feel drained and idk what to do. i’m slowly growing more and more done with everything idk

  1. greenestripes-blog said: im gonna stop before i sound like an idiot. but IM me or skype or whatever. or we can even just watch movies again. or nothing at all. im here whenever
  2. greenestripes-blog said: i love what you manage to do, even if its a little here and there. I also loved the last few weeks when we got to know each other and i miss is and i know its cause i haven’t relaly been on this blog yet but like… i’m not gonna give up on you. also - idk what that means but im saying it. also, you can always skype me if you need to vent, im okay with it. i’d rather hear other people vent than deal with my own things. also, i don’t want you to be on your own.
  3. greenestripes-blog said: on the first part, i feel that all the time. honestly, i’m a really shy anxious writer myself, even though i dont mention it. The second, i mean.. dont get down on yourself for that. If what you need is time to yourself in whatever way then take that. I was like that earlier this year before i had a job myself And it is really hard sometimes to start yourself with big things like that. Idk where I’m really going with this. I dont want you to delete though
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stand forth

indie, private and highly selective multimuse of females from the wizarding world of harry potter, including canon's and oc's. penned by ginger

to a generation

What you don't tell no one, you can tell me Little ghost tall, tan like milk and honey You're very BRAVE and you're very free So swing it high, CHERRY BLOSSOM On your sycamore tree What you don't tell no one, you can tell me SWING it high like Jesus, baby Little ghost so fair like lemonade tea

of powerful witches

And I can't stop 'til the whole world knows my name 'Cause I was only born inside my dreams Until you DIE for me, as long as there's a LIGHT, my SHADOW'S over you 'Cause I, I am the opposite of amnesia And you're a CHERRY BLOSSOM You're about to bloom You look so pretty, but you're gone so SOON